Sick Face

Wow it has been way too long since I last posted. But I have good reason. My dear laptop died last Sunday night, the 15th even, around 10:30ish is when I first noticed it was...struggling for life. It was tragic, let me tell you. I was devastated. However, after some visits to different stores, specifically an amazing PC store in Provo, my laptop was diagnosed that it needed a new motherboard and was promptly shipped off to HP to be fixed...for FREE. Now, originally after this first happened we thought I was going to have to buy a whole new laptop because to fix a motherboard costs like $600. I pretty much broke down and started freaking out. I mean, I don't have the money to buy a new laptop right now without doing some major savings damage. My amazing mother said that she would buy me a new one. I was so grateful for that, believe me. But then we found out that HP has had a lot of problems with my type of computer so they are fixing it for free. I don't know if I can explain the pure joy and gratitude I felt when I found this out. I mean, talk about a blessing from Heavenly Father. I was so worried and yet it all worked out, as He proves to me every time I get worked up over something. Just another testament to paying tithing and having faith.

The not-as-fun part is that I probably won't get it back until next week. Which means taking notes by hand, which is really not my forte. I mean, have you seen my handwriting skills? Not what I call "the best". But I'll survive. Even though I feel so lost without my laptop. For real. It's like my baby. I don't know what to do without it. It has my whole life on it. Oh! and the other best part of it is that I didn't lose any of my information! I know, fantastic right? I was so so so happy to hear that. So now all my stuff is on an external hard drive. woot.

On another note, I woke up this morning feeling like butt. I got hardly any sleep last night even though I went to bed early. My throat is really swollen, making it painful to swallow. And it hurts when I breathe. Pretty much my chest just hurts in general. And my mind is pretty hazy. Oh and my neck and back hurts too; like real achy. What is up with that? I wish I could just stay in bed and watch movies all day, but alas I have a test this week that I must study for; good thing I love Baroque art so it's more like fun rather than studying. And other things are looking up too. So, other than the fact that my body has decided to hate me right now, I'm generally pretty happy.

And speaking of happy, the forum today was amazing. Like, I loved it. If you haven't seen it, you should.

Al-dog's Song-of-the-week: Feels Like Home by Chantal Kreviazuk. I've always loved this song. It's a sweet one...I think that's all I've got to say.

you want more?

so...I made another blog. Not to replace this one of course. I just wanted a blog that I could write about other stuff. Like spiritual stuff or random thoughts, music stuff, lyrics I like, etc. Becca has one and I really like the idea. Maybe I'll get sick of it, but it seemed like a fun thing to do today, so I did it.

the address for it is ohthejoysoflife.blogspot.com

You can read it if you want, but I won't be offended if you don't.

In other news, I don't really have anything exciting. But I'm super excited for a three day weekend. I have so much to do.

I've been watching the Bachelor and it is down to the final 3. I watched the Bachelorette with Larke over the summer and the guy who "lost" is now the bachelor, and I just had to watch it. But one thing I hate about shows like this where people get kicked off is that I get so attached! And I fret over who I think should win, even though I have no control. But it's still fun to watch.

This Saturday is Valentine's Day. Need I say more? I have very mixed feelings this year about it. I'm excited to have a fun dinner with my amazing roommates and hopefully hang out with friends. But I really really don't want to think about the fact that I don't have someone who wants to tell me how much they love me. Because I think I'm finally ok with the fact that I don't have that. So I guess my goal for the rest of this week is to not think about that and to focus on what I do have and the amazing people I have in my life that do love me.

And since this is technically the second post this week, there is no song of the week. You're heartbroken I know.

Ok ok, I've been convinced.

Song-of-the-Week-number-2: In honor of said day of "love", I have chosen The Luckiest by Ben Folds. I just love this song, as I'm sure most girls do. Even though I don't have this yet, I just think of the day when I do have someone who loves me this much. And if that thought doesn't make me happy I don't know what will.

The Adventure of Awesome

Hmm

This week has been interesting, both good and bad.

The good, but really great, part is that I went to Idaho with Debbie and Nikki and Dani and Stephanie and Haley and lots of other cool people. I really really was not wanting to go because I had a horrible day on Friday. But I decided that my decision-making skills were kind of impaired because of it so I just went. And it was just what I needed. It was so much fun to just relax and chill and have funsies with my besties. It took us like 6 hours each way of driving. But Haley drove and there was no snow and we listened to awesome (and by awesome I mean super awesome) music and sand our hearts out and slept and ate. It was fantastic. I slipped on the ice somehow and it was pretty funny. But my left lower back still hurts, as does my left arm. And the back of my right hand somehow got little scrapes, which I'm sure will be gone by tomorrow. Deb and I almost finished a puzzle, but alas it did not happen. But I'm ok with it, even though I hate not finishing puzzles. Deb and Nik and Haley and I had way too much fun with the snow and pictures were a plenty.

I'm trying to just be happy, even when I want to be sad. So far it's pretty hard but I just miss laughing a lot and being really happy all the time. So I decided to just suck it up and be happy. Because, well, I think I'm pretty great when I'm happy. And I'm so sick of being sad about things. I can't change the past, so I just have to look forward to the future. And I'm planning on having an amazing future. So, here's a punch in the face to the sad stuff and a big chocolate kiss to the real good stuff.

Both of them say yes.

Song-o-the-Week: No Air by Jordin Sparks featuring Chris Brown. But only because I think that was the song I heard most this weekend. And it's just so dramatic how can you not burst into tears when it comes on?